Sudah lama sekali gue nggak menulis: Menulis dalam arti
layak baca oleh publik, baik dari segi teknis maupun konten isi. Alasan? Rare
inspirations and multiple deliberation. I guess I'm getting old.
I like writing. Rasanya seperti pelepasan, dikala jenuh dan
muak. Ketika kepala ini terlalu penuh dengan hal-hal mengkhawatirkan yang
rasanya mustahil untuk diselesaikan, menulis membantu gue untuk melihat
permasalahan dari sudut pandang yang berbeda. And it helps in finding
solutions.
Honestly, I like to read my old writings in my spare time
just to realize how a person's mind could change through time and life. How
things I wrote about change, from a mere fangirling-stuff into more complicated
real-world problems. Sometime I miss that girl, writing about all those handsome
men she fancied, whose problems round about school and home. Sometime I laugh
at how she described things and her feelings, how innocently she viewed the
world.
And there are also times, when I want to grab her by the
neck and scream to her face: WHY DID YOU PUBLISH SUCH THINGS ON INTERNET?!
